Here's a powerful question--The Miracle Question--that may help you get clear on your desires:
If a miracle occurred overnight, and whatever it was you were hoping for actually happened, what would you first notice the next day that would indicate it had happened? How would you know? What would be different?
Getting clear on your outcome is one quick way to help you decide if what you THINK you want is what you actually want. So, again:
What would you notice first if your miracle occurred overnight?
Or would you even notice?
In order for your dreams to come true, you must first wake up.